I’m a therapist and I’m currently working at a non-profit mental health agency in my community. Ten years ago I never would have thought that I’d be working back in the very community that I grew up in. This must have been simpler times. I didn’t have very much knowledge on what was mental health and who needed therapy. And now my career as a therapist continually opens my eyes to so many issues in the world and challenges in people’s lives.
Lately, I’ve been reflecting a lot on whether I want to be in a partnership, marry, and have children. It’s kind of hard not to think about this since this is the societal norm and expectation for many people. Most of my coworkers are either in a relationship, engaged, or married and have kids. I work with many children and families that come from varying backgrounds. I’m surrounded by all kinds of human connections. I’ve realized how having healthy human connection is vital to happiness and survival.
2020 has been one hell of a year so far. It’s unsettling to say that these past six months felt like I was living through a couple of chapters in a history textbook. We had the threat of a start of WWIII, the Coronavirus pandemic, the Black Lives Matter movement, and the upcoming election in November. And with Covid-19 and the Black Lives Matter movement, I’ve done more serious self-reflection than I have ever imagined. I am worried about the generations beyond who have to live through the society we are currently creating for them.
It’s been somewhat challenging grieving the loss of normal routines and activities, traveling, and socializing with loved ones but I’ve found my new daily norm. I’m successfully navigated providing telehealth while working from home and coping with my own feelings. I’ve found my balance in cooking, baking, and helping others. I’ve also felt angered and frustrated that it took a pandemic, deaths, and protests for important yet difficult conversations to happen. I recognized my privilege allowed me to brush off these difficult conversations for many years. I’m looking for my voice and strength to share all my thoughts on 2020 so far and to challenge the systemic racial biases ingrained in my own knowledge. I still lay awake restless at night not knowing what to expect for tomorrow and the future.
And I’d like to think that hopefully the world still wants what’s best for the children who are the future of this world when we all pass on someday. Hundreds of years from now, the system that is today will not work for the system that is the future. The people of our world need to connect, collaborate, leave behind our selfishness and think forward. At the end of the day, it’s important to look out for each other (your community, your neighbor, your friend, your acquaintance, a stranger) and vote to change the world we live in today.